we are faced with uncomfortable situations every day. some in which are very difficult to face, go through, and for the current one I’m in; hard to understand. People have constantly surprise me in the things they do, say, and portray. A friend of mine just told me recently, people will constantly surprise you with the things they vindictively do or say to you and not have an inch of sympathy or regret for how it made you feel. Yet another AHA moment.
Just this week I have been in a constant battle with those in whom I never knew was in a competitive battle with me. Secretly trying to bring me down, and not see me succeed. I never knew I was as strong as I have been in the last year in a half, and still have not found it in myself to give myself credit for getting through some of the hardest times in my life, but to only give credit to Jesus. There have been times in the last week, were I felt as though I wasn't walking but that I was being carried. Moments in which I felt so weak, so unable to function my words were delivering themselves. Finding guilt in myself for being honest.
There are times in your life where you may not want to be truthful about your current situation and you rather run from it or ignore it. Until the situation hurts you more and more and you realize it will eventually break you. I refuse to be broken, I refuse to be so hurt and delusional from the hurt of others to take away time from my daughter or myself. To let what the action of others affect my life and my happy spirit. For I know Jesus has a plan for us all, and is up to you and me to carry it out, in order to see the glory in which he has inherit to us. So I continue to get up, and do what is right. To do what I was ordain to do, as I've said it before and I'll say it again, my story is just beginning, and it will definitely continue.
around here we don't look backwards for very long
we keep moving forward
opening up new doors
and doing new things
because we are curious
and curiosity keeps leading us down
new paths
Walt Disney