There are times when a routine, habit, people, and schedule becomes a constant rotation in our lives. We get comfortable, and attached to them. When a change or detour occurs, it could either be great, or it could be sad. The change that has just interrupted my life has sadden me. My big sister who has never been away from me, no more than two to three days at a time is moving away. She is moving on the other side of the United States. More than 800 miles away, and it is not settling well with my mom, her, and myself. We all have been crying non-stop for the last three weeks, and as our time of living in the same city comes close to moving day, it gets harder and harder to fight the emotions of feeling lost, distant, and hurt.
Who would have ever thought my best friend that I have had since I was born would end up being so far away from me. Not in reach to cry on her shoulder, unexpected phone calls to meet for lunch, meeting in the lobby for church: after it already started. :-). I'm going to miss her so much. Apart of me will feel lost, and incomplete. My nieces will be missed also. Their smiles, their laughter, and most of all the weird questions... and to hear them call me "auntie". Missing my sister calling me "sissy". What shall I do with my sister away? How am I to say bye not knowing when will I see her again? How will I protect her when she needs me?
Who would have ever thought my best friend that I have had since I was born would end up being so far away from me. Not in reach to cry on her shoulder, unexpected phone calls to meet for lunch, meeting in the lobby for church: after it already started. :-). I'm going to miss her so much. Apart of me will feel lost, and incomplete. My nieces will be missed also. Their smiles, their laughter, and most of all the weird questions... and to hear them call me "auntie". Missing my sister calling me "sissy". What shall I do with my sister away? How am I to say bye not knowing when will I see her again? How will I protect her when she needs me?
I will pray and forever keep her in my thoughts. I will call her every morning just to hear her voice. We will share a laugh and a compliment or two, just as she was here in the new. I will Skype with the girls to make sure they don't grow too much without me. Send them treats, presents, and feed them sweets. Anticipate the holidays for I know we will all share. Let the new beginning of our lives begin in a crisp air.
Love you sissy.
Love you sissy.
My little sister just moved to the Virgin Islands almost a month ago! I'm still having a hard time with it, so I hear ya, girl! I even wrote a post similar to this one about how odd my life is going to be without her, because for so long, since she was born it has been me and my two younger sisters. It's hard for me to picture my everyday life without one of them and I'm still learning to adjust!
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