His Touch

riding in the car with that “person” in whom you had butterflies before seeing, reaches over and touches your thigh lightly and you feel a rush of your blood leave the spot of where his hand is, and goes to your feet. You then hurry and turn your face in a different direction, clinch your fist, close your eyes for a moment and take a deep breath, and later you don’t even remember exhaling. This seems much... I know, especially in front of him. But it happens so fast, he doesn’t even notice. He continues to hold the steering wheel with his left hand, leaning on the console in the middle of you two with his left arm, while massaging and grasping your left thigh with his right hand as he wonders if we're going in the right direction. Those are the essential moments, that ends up being our favorite ones, and the beginning in which we start to fall in love.

As his hand reaches your inner back while you are walking in front of him, your spine immediately tingles, as you get an intense feeling of being proud he’s attempting to touch you in public, giving his immediate language to all the other men around she’s with me, at that moment he’s falling love.

In our most intense intimate moments is when the simplest touches intrigues a woman and ignite her feelings for the person in which she is in contact with. His hands grasping the back of your neck as he draws you closer to him, the small amount of sweat in the palm of his hands mixing in the lust of yours, the aggressive embrace of both of his arms clutching around your waist as his hands join together in the sink of your back. The simplest kiss on the bridge of where your eyebrows part, is the touch that exuberates the love in which you have found in yourself for him, and in him.

Sometimes its not about the car he drives, or the job he has. But is about those moments in which he can take you out of yourself and walk with your soul as he pleases you in every step he makes, just by the contact of his hand, the press of his lips, and what he’s thinking while he just stares at you for no reason… You know those moments. When you catch him staring at you, as you play in your hair, or when you find something hysterically funny, or when you and he are just watching a late night movie and he is suddenly staring at you while smiling and you ask him “what”! And he says “nothing”, and turns his head, while thinking he is indeed lucky.

who is to be is not to be, what the hell is the question...

Clubs are usually a place to go and have a great time with friends or family, an atmosphere where most people go to celebrate an event of some kind or better yet to get away from a problem or take their mind off of a situation. As I attended one of these places last night with great people I notice many other people of different levels of looks, taste, ages, heights, and demeanor.  It’s rare to hear people speak of how often many individuals choose to hide the reality of their life, but choose places like clubs, and internet networks to paint a picture, hide, or create a place in which they want to be, or who the wish they were. I tend not to place judgment on such people anymore, only because I’m able to understand my blessing of seeing myself in which Gods sees me, as they are not.

 I look in the mirror, as I in make up or not, and take pride in myself, who I am and what I have accomplish. Many times I may steer my thoughts wrong due to the judgment others place on me from what I have or don’t have, so at times when I am blessed among my expectations I tend to hide it from those in whom I know don’t have my best interest at heart, or I tend to block certain visuals of my possessions so others won’t demonstrate hate for me or what I have, and at times people do this and not even know they are doing so. These are usually the people who brag or lie about having something that in which they don’t, or embellish on what they actually have, or actually have it, and chooses to wallow on it, so that they may feel they are better than you. This happens to me more often than I can remember at times, and I say to myself, why do people lie so much to me. I have even down-shined myself or given myself short in order to not make anyone act differently toward me. What do I have that encourages a thought of anyone, rather it being a stranger or a friend, to lie to me about anything in their life. Not about something they did to me, or something they may have said, but of which something they have. In clearer terms the materialistic items in which they uphold or how they may have obtained it.

            Why do people lie? Is that the only self indulgence one may find to endure happiness in front of others? Sometimes it makes people feel good to know that they are better than someone else. What produces a thought as this, I could not explain or understand, but its true. Don’t get me wrong I can relate many of times I have lied about something or to someone. But I have never been ashamed of who I was, and what I look like, or what I don’t have. (Accept when I went through my acne phase)…J

 In my mind there have been times when I felt as though I wanted more, or I didn’t drive a certain car, or lived in a certain area or place. But even at a young age, I realize that when you embrace who you are, and look at the greatness of each little thing you have …self, personality, character, creativity, and motivation. A person will build a moral fiber that will oversee everything within, that makes all the things you see small look as beautiful on the outside and be visualize by others as a walking blessing. No matter what I have, or don’t, who I am as a person outshines all the rest, and that’s one thing I can brag on. Having a spirit of laughter,  the indulgence to make anyone smile, the love of bearing friends and meeting new people, is a character I have that outshines having a fancy car, a six bedroom home, a fake marriage, fake friends, or even a perfect job. Being A Great Person is a person who has it all!

My Joy in the Morning

Surpassing through life’s unexpected interruptions, you will eventually find yourself looking back in your rear view mirror pressing forward from a storm you not only survive but you embraced, learned from, and gain another self claim characteristic about yourself.  There are many stop signs through life, and once you do a complete stop you’ll give it gas and there will be another one around the corner. But guess what Joy cometh in the morning. A wonderful evening I have had, spending an hour with Mekenzie’s on her homework, not interruptions, just pure learning. I found a very enticing recipe online for Bacon-Roasted Chicken with Potatoes. OMG people, absolutely amazing! First time trying it and it was indeed a success. I learn something new all in one night, after cooking a great meal for me and my Mekenzie.

I finish my well written outline on the Okapi Wildlife Reserve, very informative information, a beautiful rainforest trying to survive from the outskirts of hunters, and political views of why they should be saved or not. We go through life complaining about our problems, dealing with finances, and relationships, when there is so much hurt in the world in other countries that we couldn’t even think of, or attempt to experience. There’s a piece of me that wants to embrace every part of the world and give a smile to someone or something. For those people who only think of themselves, look at your fingers, listen to the voices around you, and embrace the color of your skin, and take a moment and see that all is given, and all is done.  The Lord Our God has just begun.

A wonderful evening I have had, spending an hour with Mekenzie’s on her homework, no interruptions, just pure learning, after we finish her math homework, I decided to cook, but wanted to try something new. I found a very enticing recipe online for Bacon-Roasted Chicken with Potatoes.  

VOILA! 

Bacon-wrapped drumsticks and thighs with baby Dutch yellow potatoes, roasted with onions and herbs, a very delicious and simple dinner.

 

OMG people, absolutely amazing! First time trying it and it was indeed a success. I learn something new all in one night, after cooking a great meal for me and my Mekenzie.

I finish my well written outline on the Okapi Wildlife Reserve, an unfortunate endanger species, that is living in the afurti rainforest. Very informative information, a beautiful rainforest trying to survive from the outskirts of hunters, and political views of why they should be saved or not.

Okapi 

 

We go through life complaining about our problems, dealing with finances, and relationships, when there is so much hurt in the world in other countries that we couldn’t even think of, or attempt to experience. There’s a piece of me that wants to embrace every part of the world and give a smile to someone or something. For those people who only think of themselves, look at your fingers, listen to the voices around you, and embrace the color of your skin, and take a moment and see that all is given, and all is done. The Lord Our God has just begun.

I just wanted to share one of the many blessed evening of my life with you. I made a new dish, and I'm so proud of myself! ha..ha... This is only the beginning of my growth, I plan to see and do much more in the coming days. Those who are genuine and love me so, will embrace my blessing as if they are they're own. Good Night Readers, and until next time, pass a smile rather if its verbal or "escrito"..that's the word "writing" in spanish... Yay Rosetta Stone!

life's love

What a wonderful weekend! Saturday morning cut my mother’s entire lawn, Mekenzie and I ate some very delicious Hooter Wings! Sunday enjoyed a peaceful morning of pray and rededication, and afterwards me and Mekenzie cleaned the truck, and helped a good friend of mine unpack in her new home.

Joy cometh to those who grasp it with their fingers un-clutched and expecting only the good things the world still offers naturally.

The sun warmth on your skin, The laughter of your child from being sprinkle with the water splashing from the car wash, the beauty of the grass when the wind blows, the smell of the flowers as they bloom, and the sound of the bees and waltz’s journeying on the lawn.

The life love, are the essential moments most of us take for granted. The most heartfelt things in life are those that don’t cost you a tear, or an effort. This is also the endeavor in which you keep stable and focused on God. When in fact you can’t fail at life, or cheat time.

I am keen on the sky when driving home from work, the footsteps of the clouds reminds me of the beauty tomorrow holds from the lessons I learned today.

Remember each day is accountable for itself, so don’t blame tomorrow for its faults.

being in love

Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all...  

Through the lives of many young and older women today, love is not found, nor understood, or given. The eyes of a woman should be to fulfill her soul with the existence of a man, who is able to understand her needs before they are express, to completes her sentences, mends her heart, take care to her needs, compliments her efforts within herself to be beautiful for him. And yet, women today are side blinded by an image, career, and financial statement of a man completing her rather than to wait on the person who was made to define her.

God has created a significant being, one who upholds qualities that are meant to suffice, encourage, love, and adore another. Someone once told me, many women today will not experience the love that was meant for her. To define love or either find it, you must endure the characteristics that make up for it. Which is to be patient for it, for it will find you, to be kind to those that may try to love you. Don’t be envious of those that have it before you, nor boastful or arrogant if you find it before another. Don’t tend to have your own way with those that are intrigued by you, nor irritable to those that express their love more than you may have for them. Don’t rejoice when doing wrong onto someone, only rejoice in honesty. When the person God intentionally designed for you make a mistake, please forgive them. Hope for all good bringing's, and endure the possibilities of great memories.

As a woman I am created to be strong minded, I am to love hard, take care of home and bear children. I am supportive, I endure all, I love all, and I want for nothing by the ingredients in my life God provides. The Man that possess a hold onto me, will not even feel he deserves me, but in the eyes of God, he was created for me.

¹If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ²If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. ³If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. (1 Corinthians 13)

un-noticed enemies

Even when you are in a good place, there are times when a person or situation will try to bring you down. Bring you to a place of where they are, and try to haunt, and torment you, to the fullest of their strength, or activate a self gratification of their own, by seeing you act in anger to their punches. Its more than that to life... actually that isn't living at all. Life is being able to look pass those negative mind sets of others and sometimes our own selves. Yes I too get angry at times, but I have chosen to choose my battles, and to fight them fairly. To be in contact of my character I learn everyday that I am not where I want to be just yet. But I can conceitedly say that I’m on the right path, I am always looking for ways to change, not just to claim I'm a better person, but to be at peace and happy with myself. Knowing that each choice I have made, and every word that I speak is on a good conscious and not a negative one.

When we learn to control ourselves and our tongues, those things around us will not affect us, nor be notice. Weapons of envy and hurt will not be notice by you, nor affect you. Sometimes it’s so close in your face you have no choice but to notice it, but you will remain calm about it, maybe hurt or discourage, but it will never break you, for you are grateful that it isn't you.

Other than that, my weekend was wonderful, I had a ball  for one of my friends Birthday in Port Arthur Texas, Great Place! A magnificent time with friends, the road, great talks and food. My sunday I spent enjoying with the love of my life Mekenzie, and some good football, Go Steelers and Texans!!! Until next time readers, make the best of any bad situation for those are the ones that prepare us for the next blessing.

 

remember to always enjoy life, because it will always enjoy you.