who is to be is not to be, what the hell is the question...

Clubs are usually a place to go and have a great time with friends or family, an atmosphere where most people go to celebrate an event of some kind or better yet to get away from a problem or take their mind off of a situation. As I attended one of these places last night with great people I notice many other people of different levels of looks, taste, ages, heights, and demeanor.  It’s rare to hear people speak of how often many individuals choose to hide the reality of their life, but choose places like clubs, and internet networks to paint a picture, hide, or create a place in which they want to be, or who the wish they were. I tend not to place judgment on such people anymore, only because I’m able to understand my blessing of seeing myself in which Gods sees me, as they are not.

 I look in the mirror, as I in make up or not, and take pride in myself, who I am and what I have accomplish. Many times I may steer my thoughts wrong due to the judgment others place on me from what I have or don’t have, so at times when I am blessed among my expectations I tend to hide it from those in whom I know don’t have my best interest at heart, or I tend to block certain visuals of my possessions so others won’t demonstrate hate for me or what I have, and at times people do this and not even know they are doing so. These are usually the people who brag or lie about having something that in which they don’t, or embellish on what they actually have, or actually have it, and chooses to wallow on it, so that they may feel they are better than you. This happens to me more often than I can remember at times, and I say to myself, why do people lie so much to me. I have even down-shined myself or given myself short in order to not make anyone act differently toward me. What do I have that encourages a thought of anyone, rather it being a stranger or a friend, to lie to me about anything in their life. Not about something they did to me, or something they may have said, but of which something they have. In clearer terms the materialistic items in which they uphold or how they may have obtained it.

            Why do people lie? Is that the only self indulgence one may find to endure happiness in front of others? Sometimes it makes people feel good to know that they are better than someone else. What produces a thought as this, I could not explain or understand, but its true. Don’t get me wrong I can relate many of times I have lied about something or to someone. But I have never been ashamed of who I was, and what I look like, or what I don’t have. (Accept when I went through my acne phase)…J

 In my mind there have been times when I felt as though I wanted more, or I didn’t drive a certain car, or lived in a certain area or place. But even at a young age, I realize that when you embrace who you are, and look at the greatness of each little thing you have …self, personality, character, creativity, and motivation. A person will build a moral fiber that will oversee everything within, that makes all the things you see small look as beautiful on the outside and be visualize by others as a walking blessing. No matter what I have, or don’t, who I am as a person outshines all the rest, and that’s one thing I can brag on. Having a spirit of laughter,  the indulgence to make anyone smile, the love of bearing friends and meeting new people, is a character I have that outshines having a fancy car, a six bedroom home, a fake marriage, fake friends, or even a perfect job. Being A Great Person is a person who has it all!