" he got you "

Yet, I am at  another time in my life where I have found myself seeing and getting closer to the light at the end of the tunnel. Another revelation of how God is working through me and on my behalf. Yesterday was an amazing moment for me and I am sure for others who were inside the same church walls with me. We had a visitor at Lakewood named Nick Vujicic, he was the most admiring, uplifting, non-complaining person I have ever met in my life. I watch Mr. Vujicic deliver a message created in him by God, with a smile on his face, and not a complaint in his eyes or his tone. He spoke on how people would ask their own selves why would God create a person to have no arms or legs, and he assured us that it wasn't God that intended on him to be born that way, but there is much that Satan has done. God will use the effects of evil has and use it for his Glory. Mr. Vujicic was magnificent to listen too. It was emotional for me, as he spoke. He answered many of my prayers from the past of what I thought God ignored or did not answer. God has his own plans for my life, and until I get on his time line, I will forever want those things that are not intended for me. My break through was knowing "he got me". As happy as I am with life, there are moments sometimes my mind tries to force me to worry or be stress. I was asked at church yesterday as into why I let my mind do that, and I couldn't answer. But I now have the assurance that God has me in the palm of his hands. I also learn that every difficulty situation I have encountered or been through has not been lessons sent from God intentionally to make me suffer. But it has been a learning experience to trust in him, and know that he is in control. What a grand thought of just knowing that, "The Greatest Miracle of Life is Knowing Your Name is in The Book of Life - Nick". We will always have questions, and we may at times fail God, but he will never fail you. I have such a spirit that allows me to be so keen and happy for those in whom I see the spirit of the Lord in. I strive to one day be a person of such that kind of Grace.

how do we forget

Whoo! Ok, its been a journey, and not sure if my journey is over, but I was reflected back on the events of my life that changed me for the good, and the test that followed and that broke me, and brought me back to the past in which I tried so much to forget and not go back too. My heart is heavy, my love is lost, and my determination is strong. How did I forget all that I have learned and retreat back into being the person in whom is stressed, unrelaxed, and carry so much heaviness? I forgot his promises, his lessons, and the love in which he has for me. As I pray to this page and whomever who reads it, Dear God, place the peace that has drained from me back into my heart. Let me love again without first blaming, or resenting. Let me not be striking by those who want to see me fail, let me not hate those of past hurts, let me forgive, and not take everything so personal. When the time comes of a persons actions seems mean, or attacking to me, let me forgive at once, move on, pray for them, and become better. As thier actions is a lesson that reflects an image of me, on how I handle a situation, but to not bring no stress onto my heart. (amen). A friend help me today, to not notice those things of hurt or pain, to not expect everyone to be kind but hope to be kind to them, and live for the moments that brings smiles. Today I claim, a reflection of where I been, where I came from, and where I am going. Who I am! which is who I love, and who I intend on never losing, despite the challenges. Happiness and reflection found me today, and I intend on loving all of those that keep me in their hearts, for those that find thoughts of me failing, I also pray for you to one day reach the echelon of where I am, and where I'm going. For we all need at times to reflect on who we are, and what we have been to people. I am grateful for what I've been through. I am grateful for all that GOD is doing in my life at this very moment. He has taken a jar filled with my life, shaken it up, release somethings, taken a piece or two out, shaken it up again, and now the contents inside are starting to settle. and for that I'm grateful... once again my story continues

Dedicated to Nate.