What the F...!

If you have read any of my posts in the last six months you would be able to notice that I was in a very difficult situation within my career, with myself, and learning life lessons. I am just now making it to healing, and relief phase. But in all I still have questions that I feel or unanswered, but I'm calmer, more happier, and feel like I'm finally catching my breath. OK,... wait... here it comes.. whoo! (exhale). I finally feel strong, I was at a point in which I felt tired and weak everyday. I stop working out, I start losing wieght, I wasn't conscious of most of the things around me. But now I'm feeling free of burden, stress, and most of all anger. I'm loving life again.

On another note there is so much effort people put into to hating, sabotaging, and disliking someone for reason they find are justifiable.

I am a member of Lakewood Church in Houston Texas, home of Pastor Joel Osteen. And today I found myself in a situation where individuals were trying to persuade me of reasons that they feel Joel is inadequate to speak. They were saying he speaks BS, that his messages or corrupt, and that cannot be trusted. Majority of these people have never been in the same room with him, shook his hand, or even been to one of his sermons. Others have found there opinion through gossip, opinions of TV analysts, false statements, and so on. One person even found it necessary to show me a sermon of another pastor giving a message dissecting one of Joel Osteen's messages. I did not understand it. I thought that was absurb. If you don't like the way someone is doing something, or how they are speaking, why put effort into hating, or disliking that person or the thing that person does?

I feel like the main term people forget to dissect, judge, analyze, or even try to do is communicate. With the situation I experienced in the last year, the failed relationships I have had, the friendships that no longer exist, I feel has always failed because of the failure of communication. People interpret what one person says differently than what they could have possibly meant. They take that meaning and run with it, feed off of it, make it bigger in their mind on a negative level, let it fester and then become destructive. There are so many things a person can put their energy into. Get a positive meaning to life, find a hobby, start an organization, volunteer, do something! Rather than hating or belittling another human being for doing something bigger than themself.

Be apart of the good things the world has to offer, rather than festering on the things that you have to give negative thought into.