The other woman

It's raining like crazy tonight! Chill weather... Everyone's sleeping, I'm laying in the dark pissed, tears streaming down my face. I'll be better tomorrow... But as I realize he didn't answer his phone tonight, ... She gets points tonight which is being home with him. In his element. Comfort of his home with rain in the background.. and as I call and he don't answer. I'm alone. She's probably having movie night and fucking later. I'm fighting the urge to tell him not to call me again, for I'll regret it in the morning. A woman choose to love hard for the night of feeling like he belongs to her and she's all he want. Ignore the reality he's not. As the other woman that's the hardest risk, for she's playing with her heart...

Worst Week of America

This was one of the worst weeks America has ever endured. so many tragedies exploding one behind the other.  This week I cried,  smiled, laughed, and was afraid.  It seems you can be careful... responsible even, and try to stay aware, but you could never be prepared when hatred happens, or a careless mistakes occurs.  What drives a person to be angry towards people they don't know? Why are we constantly judged as a whole, depending on race or religion. I now understand the importance of controlling my anger,  for it only becomes evil. Have we all seen evil before? If not... we seen it this week.  Do you ever want to be hated as the marathon bombers?

A friend of mine this week told me in a malicious way that women of my race hair don't grow, and with the intention to be mean she made the point of saying her race hair is better.  A year ago I would of cursed her out and I would of wanted to fight and punish her with words severely.  Surprised at myself... I paused for a moment... and remembered the bible verse ♡refrain from anger for it only leads to evil♡Psalms 37. I told her she was out of line and that I hope she has a great day,  and I have distance myself from her. Its not the first time she has made a comment that was meant to be malicious towards me... i realize its evil, something I never want to be labeled as. I never want to find myself on TV running from the police, because of where I let my anger grow too.

Baltimore Ravens Cheerleader DECLINED!

I was reading an article this morning, about a five year veteran Raven Cheerleader who was not invited to cheer at the Raven's Super Bowl Game. As I reading, I wanted to make sure that I didn't prejudge until I actually heard the reason as into why the cheerleader was upset. But when I got further into the story and her reasons of wanting to be heard, I was truly upset. I'm sorry but for some reasons this makes me think of a envious woman somewhere who decided to teach this girl a lesson. Someone who has been on their team for five years, and has even been featured in magazines for being one of the hottest cheerleaders in the NFL, was not ask to come back! Seriously. Why can't women be for one another. I may be jumping the gun on this one, but I see jealousy written all over this story.

This is why people and "women in general" become confused in life when making life decisions: Judgement. You never know how someone is going to feel about our choices, or who may be affected, but when in reality is about making OUR own life happy. Courtney made a life decision to further her career after graduating from college, and was not shown a pat on the back, but a kick in the rear for retiring. I think it's ridiculous and she deserves to cheer as this will be her last year.

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Live and Love

A new year, another year, another longevity to success, maybe...geez..whatever. The way things are now in life not much matter accept surviving and protecting those around you. I didn't celebrate much coming into the new year, since every year before this one when I did celebrate there seem to have some struggle I fought getting over or living through. So to avoid the consistent not so lucky struggle or anticipation of something great, I went into the new year as if it was another day that God bless me to see. Another day that I was able to have and spend with my family.

I don't think thats wrong. Just a way to cope with another year that may have challenges and trials. I didn't come into it thinking negatively, just to avoid dissapointment that has yet to happen. WHAT IS THAT? This is how many of us think today. Let's avoid it, so that we dont have to be severely dissapointed. If we think like this.. we will never live!. Never see the things that are truly meant for our happiness and success. Falling in Love and getting your heart broken is living, and the great part is learning. You get better with each season. So don't cheat yourself out of living your life. My pastor Joel always says, you don't want to wait until you get to heaven and see your heavenly closet filled with boxes containing your blessings that you never were able to experience while you were living. Live life, make it through the struggle, smile no matter what. Becuase when you give up, you've already place defeat on your life.

BE POSITIVE AMERICA

As difficult as it may be for some, and yet victorious for others, Barack Obama is indeed our president once again. I don't judge those who may feel as though its not right, or disagree with it. I just ask those to be positive about it for it was all in the plans of our God. Regardless to some if they are still rooting for him to fail so that your conscious is good..It's not what is best for our country. So if you are one of those who hate or dislike that Barack Obama is our President, pray for him and his family. Pray that he does do well in his next term, and that he helps our country become as it was before. Any person wishing that he doesn't is wishing harm on themselves and their love ones. Be Positive America! Insure yourself that its not hate that drive you toward your decision, or a personal decision, or lack of the race card. Ask God to lead our President and building our country to greatness regardless who the person is or what they look like!

VOTE VOTE VOTE

It's a great day today to know that your choice is considered important. I took the time to go and vote early, to avoid the madness today, but I still uphold great value to this day. Many years ago I could not vote because of the color of my skin, and the gender of my sex. To know that I am able to now do something that people who never knew me fought that I could, is gratifying.

A coworker told me that my vote didn't matter because I live in a republican state where only the electoral votes count; therefore I shouldn't waste my time going to vote. I took that so personal, and yet so disrespectful. I responded offensively. I just didn't understand how can a friend or associate tell you something like that... I realize that when a person chooses a religion or a political party to support that its thier own personal choice, but when its drove by hate for the opposite of what they chose is not honest. For example, I have heard people say they hate my pastor; Joel Osteen. How can you hate someone you  don't really know. Your reason are because of how he teaches, or what you feel like is the wrong way of teaching. Is that a real reason to hate someone. Or someone my hate Barack Obama because he didn't fulfull all his promises in four years. Does it really result into hate? or is it something deeper?.

I may be wrong but when an individual find it reasonable to hate someone because they are of a different choice than their own, is fake. I like Barack Obama, I feel that he is a genuine good person. He cares about what he says, and he's honest. I also like Mitt Romney. I think hes a good family man, and strongly believes in what he says he can do. My reasons to vote for Obama is because he has not been able to fulfil his entire plan in four years. But within those years he has done things that has been big to me. Ending one of Americas largest threat of terrorist. He promise to bring our troops home and he did. He made moves to improve our unemployment rate and it helped. His opportunity is not over, he deserves more time. I really wish that Mitt Romney would of waited, for I also feel like he could of done a good job as our president. Butt he couldn't be completely honest in all his attacks or finger pointing. And to feel as though he also thing that I didn't matter as being apart of the other 47%, I found it offensive. But at the same time I don't know why he said that, or why he felt the need to say that. He may have a genuine reason behind it. I don't hate him for it, I just didn't like the comment. Happy Voting Everyone, May in God we Trust to put our finances and future decision maker in God's hands.

What does it mean to me to be Creative...

To be creative to me is to be original, to be individualized. Everyone has their own meaning of being creative. How I take a paint brush to my canvas may be different than the next person. I am free when I create for I am doing what I love to do. I am taking something and making it standout, and or different than those that is like it. To be creative is to flourish something to a meaning of excitement, or draw attention to it. In situations in life, we all become creative without being aware of it. The way you shift your grocery basket down an aisle of customers that also have grocery baskets. The way a mother may match her daughters socks with the bows in her hair, these are all ways of being creative. How to grasp your husband’s attention during a football game, is considered to be creative. The form of being creative to me, is the way a person go about in being notice with oneself or something.