Dating...

Dating, Dating, Dating. If a woman could read a man's mind. I think all women would be in more productive and sensual relationships. I took myself off the dating scene for awhile, and just recently took a nice summer vacation to New York for a weekend and re-evaluated my decision. The men there are so attentive, complimentary, accepting, and very well put together. Meeting as many nice single guys as I did, made me want to get out there and have a good time. Entertain a good conversation every once in awhile and just have some fun. But I get so confused by men behavior.

One minute they're attentive, calling, and texting you on the hour, at times every hour, and all of sudden one day, your phone doesn't light up, ring, nor vibrate! They're un-attentive, disappeared. You then start to replay the last time you spoke or seen him~ Did I say something wrong., maybe I shouldn't of worn that red lip stick. I hope I didn't say something unpleasant or unattractive. You let yourself have a war with yourself, because of lack of common pleasantries of a man is nonexistence.

Women start to question and second guess themselves due to a man's own personal issues he may have in his life. When a males action are in question, and we have no clue as into why his actions have change; a woman will question herself and her own actions.. When in fact ladies it has nothing to do with you. Especially if they're on one minute and off the next. Let's continue to keep our own identity, and not change because of the identity crisis someone else may be experiencing. We fall in love with a person because of who they are, and not who we want them to be.

Therefore lets keep the trail of hearts following behind us, as we are who we are and our personality is for keeps!

It's Been A Minute

Yes it has been awhile. The last time I had the ambition, or creative time for myself or feeling of anything "emotional"; as into write was earlier this year. After a battle for an over price new home, a new car, a transitional; yet-beneficial move, and the absence of my big sister who is now living in another state. I think I'm finally starting to "feel" again. And what other way to do something I love so much, which is to write.

If we live life as it is, by overlooking the lesson; the negative cycle will continue. A cycle of complications, mistakes, wrong turns, and dead ends. Sometimes the lesson is hard to get, and yet when you calm yourself, take the higher road, or even turn the other cheek; there's no way you can miss it. It's there! And what we are suppose to learn or get out of our situations becomes clearer. And our trials come closer to an end.

For me at times its easier for me to preach it, rather than live it. I have learned my lessons and yet still find myself back in similar situations. Well now,yet again; I feel great things for myself. My emotions are on track, my mindset is set, and formatted. I have re-dreamed my dreams, re-set my goals, and re-establish my life. It's been a minute, but its back. We all go through set backs, and if you have a focus, or if you are serious about living right. You'll get back up. As in the words of Donnie Mc Clurkin, we get back up again. Because the further you go, the more you see, and the closer you get to God. We take a minute, break a minute, and long for another... minute.

My very own

One of today's American Dreams is being a homeowner. Every person that I have ever met that owns their own home usually says the same thing... its worth it! But what they forget to mention is the absolute hell you go through in getting one. For the last sixty days or so, give or take.. I have been in the process of buying a home. It has been an absolute roller coaster ride. Sacrifice, Email, Research, Give, Take, and more Sacrifice. I had to take a class on Saturday about the entire process, and as much as I dread going to take an 8 hour class on my day off, it was well worth the time, and money. I learned a great deal about buying a home, about maintaining a great credit score, and basically staying about the hassle.

I don't understand the reason for so much detail and information though.
The digging and prying of your personal life. There should be the take of knowing you can afford it, for an amount of time it is needed it, and a good credit history. The point of knowing why I went to the mall last week, or if I'm single.. which I hate discussing, because the next question following is usually really? Yes really!!! shouldn't matter. Its like going on a first date with someone that's nosey, and ready to move in with you after two cocktails. Many of the people in the class were couples, and those that were there alone, were either married or engaged. I was the only person in the class who was single. It didn't bother me in the beginning, but as I realized how every person had a person to handle this process with them, I felt as though I had so much ahead of me to take on my own. I'm now at the point of wanting to know if I'm closing or not just so that I can get rid of the nerves, and butterflies in my stomach. The stress of knowing or wondering what they are going to ask me for next. Will this be good enough, does my records look good enough, who do I have to go through next in order for this process to be finish and complete.

But with all of that said: The day when my keys are put in my hand, and I finally have a place to call my own, and not anticipate a rent increase every year, will definitely be worth it! A yard my daughter can run free in with our phoebe! A day not wondering when will I have to pack again.... A place of our own.