Am I Suppose To Care "What They Think"?



"Above all, be true to yourself, and if you cannot put your heart in it, take yourself out of it"

OK, in the last two in a half years of my life, I've turned into a very offensive, yet take no shit, and have no patience for ignorance; type of person. In the words of others, they may say I'm a heartless bitch. But yet I'm a very fun, always laughing, and love to make anyone smile. But my reaction to ignorance has made me in the eyes of others as "mean". In the last year, I have had friends walk out of my life, blame me for unhealthy friendships, and get offended by my jokes. I keep coming back to the thought, am I truly a bad person? My current employment has brought many of these attributes to life in me, and the people in whom I work with, gave me the theory of not trusting anyone. For I have seen it first hand someone to smile and volunteer a favor to you, and within seconds, plan an attack and betray me.

"Be yourself, don't take anyone's shit, and never let them take you alive..."

Does another person's opinion of you, carry weight? What one person, may feel who you are... matters? If you don't recognize it. Many of you may say "no", but then I think of those I see around me, who have these horrible characteristics about themselves, and don't notice it. Am I one of those people? Do what other people think of me, ....matters? Or! do I keep the opinion of myself. What makes you happy? Who you have been all this time is what makes you happy? Do you change yourself to compliment the opinions of others?
~I can't be what others want of me. I can only be who I am. Which is what attracted others to me in the first place. I try to find fault in myself of what others may feel. But I always come back to the original thought and truth that I'm not wrong, I'm only me. Nothing has changed about me. From the first time someone had the pleasure of meeting me, until the time they choose to not communicate with me anymore. I think the failure of many relationships in my life is when someone tried to change me to compliment themselves and fail.

I don't like myself, I'M CRAZY ABOUT MYSELF