what a journey it has been this week. So much to say and so much to do. So many decisions to make and follow through on. No one's advice is helpful because it's different from the next person. One person says this, and another person says that. Those problems in which existed before, is elevated for the problems I endure now has my most concern and thoughts toward. Then life seems not fair, everyone seems a bother. I start to shut everyone out one by one.
My nerves are high, and my attitude is extreme, I'm snapping on every little thing and apologizing later. But in it all, I still feel serenity, I am blessed and have gratitude for the things in my life, my daughters presence in my life! I love the lord, and I know the Lord loves me. As much as I have endured this week, I'm able to still feel restoration and positive expectations. I've been forced this week to place a judgment upon a person a part of me, but a judgment that I don't see or even an opinion. In situations like this you believe in one thing, and familiar with it. But the experts say something different, so you're force to make a decision in which you don't believe but don't have a choice in believing in. What am I to do? This reminds of one of my recent writings of enduring the suffering and not praying it away but embracing it. I now sit and thins, but there’s a time limit on what is needed to be done, God has not respond yet, so I feel somewhat alone, but also growing. I hope the decision I make is right, I hope that the way it feels is not the end results. This is one of those chapters that are continued on to the next, for the story continues as the testimony awaits.
I read your question about your daughter. Tell me why peple are advising you not to have her tested through the school. Have you talked to her pediatrician? He or she who probaby knows her well and can talk to you about the pluses and minuses of medication.
ReplyDeleteWrite me at my email (Madeline.boskey@gmail.com).